Prove us you worth it

"BUKIT MERTAJAM, Aug 27 (Bernama) -- Parti Keadilan Rakyat (PKR) retains the Permatang Pauh parliamentary seat after its advisor Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim won the by-election Tuesday with a 15,671-vote majority." - source

It's been quite a long time that I last joined PM outing but the last one I did wasn't bad at all although most of the turn-up are new faces. The old guys hardly recall me. Learnt few useful exposure tricks and got free breakfasts from the senior, felt quite weird to get someone who you only knows for few hours to buy your breakfast. The Hasselblad is as poisonous as it could be. Image quality is beyond any decent-priced dslr could produce but I am contended with 50x50 formula for the time being.

How would you react when one of your close friend(do I have one? lol) commented that you would die young? Maybe he wasn't serious. Maybe I am over sensitive again. Maybe he is speaking down-right truth that I would met my creator soon but one thing for sure is that there is no fear within. Maybe a little bit of worry about the people that cares but time will always do its job. It is true since the first day I took my bike to the street. I live every second the last second. No doubt.

New job, don't ask me about career satisfaction. Working in Malaysia has got no such thing. Some say in that little red dot too. I do enjoy the harmonious atmosphere in the office, the laughter they created out of the boring noise of dancing keys and of course, the biscuits, cakes and chocolates they shared. Sharing your abundance food is always the happiest thing to have in life.

It is a great Olympic although I missed the closing. That Jamaican guy truly outrun those Americans by meters. The country's silver medal owner deserves accreditation too given the sad state of our sport arena. I could feel the athletes' joy whenever tv commercials re-play the moments of their victories. One world one dream - Well done China.

Got a call from an old friend mid of the night few weeks back. She sighed her single-hood to me but I can't help much by sharing my points of view. Maybe it is because of the inflation. Maybe because the city is transforming too rapid that the people living within cant cook with the rate. Maybe it is destined in such a way. Maybe you should listen to David Tao's - 你爱我还是他. google it and digest the lyric.

That's all for the moment. MIFC is here. Will try to make myself there if the mood suites.

You've got to catch wall-e if you enjoy reading my post.

Nite.

During the closing, Jim's son asked why would batman run since he is a good man.

Jim answered: "Because he is destined to endure this, to run away from us and shielded in the dark while protecting the innocent."

Coupled with closing script by Jim Gordon, my tears row off side by side as the scene where Batman riding Bat-Pod silhouette vanished into the golden light. You did it; Christopher Nolan, Heath Ledger, Christian Bale and each and everyone who makes this commercial blockbuster a masterpiece. Congratulation. It blends in comic heroism action, human behavior in extreme condition(Joker is always manipulating the mass public's survivor instinct and pushing out the uncivilized self from them), technology(cell-sonar as batman eye, that's way too close to bat natural ability), and joke(apparently with Joker as the main villain) into one.

Heather Ledger made <<Batman: The Dark Knight>> a remarkable piece of dc turned big screen movie with his detailed acting. Every tiny gesture and psychotic act in the movie portraits by him simply pawn the heart of it's patrons as one who is beyond sanity, spontaneous and unpredictable. Combing his hair with knife and sniffing the beauty's scent around, walking out from Gotham General Hospital with awkwardly-fitting style, shaking the remote to make sure it works, the realistic joker make-up, the magic that got the pen disappeared and on and on... You cant miss this Joker.

I am on medication while watching it and still on while writing it. Highly possible to catch another round before it went off the big screen. The third sequel won't go any future than this as experience proved.

"You either die a hero or live long enough to become a villain." - Joker by Heath Ledger.

Nop. This is not about the commercial movie. It is a tomb stone to for the iron that serves me more than 10 years. The cable connected to it short circuit for the second time and I don't think I am going to enforce the recycle and reuse concept again given the second occurrence of the "accident(how do you define the term accident here is pretty important)" or incident. To the scrap metal yard maybe. got to fork out another 200 for a brand new iron at this desperate time. Sigh. but then fortunately the spark from the wire didn't start off a fire. Or else, the title would be "torchman" DENG!

BTW, thanks for serving me since old school days.

National Panasonic and Technic

From Answers.com

incident

n.

1. A definite and separate occurrence; an event. See synonyms at occurrence.
2. A usually minor event or condition that is subordinate to another.
3. Something contingent on or related to something else.
4. An occurrence or event that interrupts normal procedure or precipitates a crisis: an international incident.

1. Tending to arise or occur as a result or accompaniment: “There is a professional melancholy . . . incident to the occupation of a tailor” (Charles Lamb).
2. Related to or dependent on another thing.
3. Physics. Falling upon or striking a surface: incident radiation.

accident

n.

1. 1. An unexpected and undesirable event, especially one resulting in damage or harm: car accidents on icy roads.
   2. An unforeseen incident: A series of happy accidents led to his promotion.
   3. An instance of involuntary urination or defecation in one's clothing.
2. Lack of intention; chance: ran into an old friend by accident.
3. Logic. A circumstance or attribute that is not essential to the nature of something.

Just back from mum's house. Caught the debate between DSAI and our beloved Minister of Information.

Summary of the show from my perspective is(again, let me emphasize that I am trying not to be biased which is realistically impossible), someone drew a gun and shot his feet few rounds in front of the nation. The rest is upon your own imagination.

Interestingly, during the debate and recent paranoia, the proverb

国之将亡, 必出妖孽

came across my mind.

It translates to "In the eve of doom, nation will definitely plague by wicked being."

The country is obviously in storm now, you can read the news header from independence media. Guess that is part of nationhood. Hold on tight maybe, that's all every average Joe like you and me could do best now.

And yes, 15 July 2008 is my last day of 2 years and 8 days in the job that I started few weeks before initialization of this blog, nevertheless, the very reason of existence for this blog doesn't fit that though. While on the bike home, I had this thinking: of taking my dinner, pack-up, get a overnight bus and bit farewell to the city for sandy beach and crystal clear water break in the east coast. A good dreamer I proved myself to be. Even sis dare me to go ahead when I tell her about it.

Maybe too occupied with the job, felt a bit of relief and lost now but then feeling is always a feeling. Time will carry out it's duty again.

Was sourcing for this lately. I just cant get rid the moment I bumped into her on that sleepy and depressing morning. Just tailed her all the way through rows of cars until her skilled rider navigated swiftly and disappeared into bustling traffic. Too bad that they don't carry it directly locally. It is just too vibrant for the numbing life here. Worth it to burn a hole in the shrinking coffer!

D50? there are few gems to add-in but budget is tight now. Inflation is high as everyone used to say.

Can't wait to catch WALL-e.

New sites that worth a visit: Malaysian-Finance and The Malaysian Insider.

No comment on Sodomee and state-of-sin-denial as "resistance is futile.", I learnt from someone in PhotoMalaysia.

iPhone 3G by Green Giant with package under RM1,000? I prefer android in the sense of openiality but wouldn't resist a full featured web surfer plan.

Some daisies(downloaded from the web) to end the log of sevenfifteen.

Guess blizzard fans should be aware of this right now.

I don't want a new rig.

D minus 17 days before my official withdrawal. Last few weeks were of trying time in life, the condition got more complex after first wave of inflation ignition announcement, career satisfaction(the new song by that Sony ambassador sucks.) at office dropped to lowest point in my almost 2 years term, hunting met hurdles of "PR and Nationality issue". Sometime, after venturing out to seek employment in that little red dot only that I noticed the country doesn't really that talent friendly as it claimed it was, at least with their job posting proof or maybe the talent is not mine yet. Even lick doesn't sound satisfied with the post he got. Possibility are there that he would stay local. the mind was lost and juggled between the choices of efficiency surrounding or bonds, one of the element that keeps each and every sane human's life continued through the daily challenges. The mind is clearer now. maybe like those server, it needs a little bit of black out before things could get running. After all, human mind is not perfect. She is right that make up your mind and get on with life. It will be a tough journey ahead but the picture gets clearer every time a wrong decision made. and of course, damages are unavoidable consequences after that.

even received message from friend who thought I'd be overjoyed with the hike been announced this late afternoon.

not sure if this is 100% caused by our current Prime Minister administration but I know that the international crude future isn't cheap anymore. There are a couple of reason behind that if you care enough to read it. It is just irrational to pin point this to him alone. Maybe he ought to run the country with more efficiency, accountability and integrity as certain issue pointed out by Jeff should be taken care of.

The fellow citizen should not put all the blame to the government. I agree in certain way, we(Malaysian) are definitely spoilt with cheap petrol cost. It will be a painful experience to wake up from the sweet dream but the country MUST go through it.

It is true that the global world had somehow entered an age of high cost for essential items. If you put a simple math together you will figure out the logic behind this. In the old days there is only American and few European countries living a somewhat luxurious lifestyle. Soon after millennium, country like BRIC came into the picture of capitalism and urbanization. The truth is ages old equation is currently been reposition to cope with raw material demands from those populous countries. The cost will be afloat for years before the economy settle down like stirred up muddy water.

No. I do not despise people who drive. I love driving and always enjoy the experience of driving my own car traveling freely around the country but it's been forgo years ago. It is just practically unfeasible especially in a city where its population keeps growing. Space nor the fuel would not be ideally there for a mass consumer of user. Pollution is yet another notorious issue we need to face.

Human are born with instinct to travel. Why not travel with our conscience then, human?

And I do not agree on any protest on petrol hike. Let's learn to be productive and efficient. That is the key to open the steel door of high petrol cost.

And last one. Those who drives a BIG HUMVEE IMITATION aka "petrol guzzling monster vehicle" fXXk XXf from the gas station(excuse me for that), if you cant afford the hike go and get a 2 wheelie bike. Please do not go and queue up to save for merely RM50(one time saving, if you do not know how to count in long term and it is less than 0.001% saving you "smart" ass). There are people who genuinely urgently needs to fill-up their car to travel, you inconsiderate dumb!(excuse me again)

It's been quite a hectic week that had just passed. Sometime you just don't get the chance to prepare for it, life just demands you to perform when it is time as how you have practice daily. The moral value? Be sure what you are doing at this moment.

August 2005(some says May 2005) - May 2008. Almost three years in the field, maybe it is my luck. Until now, I haven't stumble upon someone who amazes me with his IT professionalism, those that I've used to dream of during the early exposure of the technology. What I saw is only bunch of business man, woman who worried about her children more than the running services, chap that spent life what I did most of the time - surfing and IM and of course, the conspiracy. Is that what we are capable of here in this land? Maybe the man whom I met lately was right, we are more like a trader/consumer than one who innovates. I shouldn't dream beyond that point here. "There is no unsolvable issue, only those that requires time. Anyone?"

Can't quite get it when friends asked "Are you taxed for the previous financial year?". I don't know but is that supposed to mean how much do you earn yearly? Maybe just a casual talk but does it matter? My foot.

"I am Iron Man." That is the first Marvel hero to admit as far as I know. Not bad with all the flying scene especially the one he deployed emergency flares(suar in Malaysia language, I only recall the word from subtitle) to divert the heat sensing missile and use it again to blind his captor. Imagine the tactic utilized by ill-equipped insurgents against troops with night goggle. Maybe the possibility is already addressed.

Not sure what will happened in coming three months time. Will officially cease to function as one in the current company in 45 days time. Haven't start to seriously hunt for a job now. Friends and family started to worry about it but not the one within. Still stuck in the holiday mood maybe, or waiting to feel desperate maybe, or I am already worrying when I type this. I wish I feel it.

Oh, He withdrew himself from the rotten-party? Who cares? Damn it!

I think sometime I am demanding for too much of authenticity from the surrounding which is impossible.

I wish the government or someone could throw in a survey/vote. Asking people to choose between driving to work or commute with an EFFICIENT public transport, especially those with more static jobs. Since the first day I dream of my work life, I had never phantom one which requires me to drive/ride a vehicle and got stuck in the traffic daily. Never! To stuck in a traffic is that last thing I want to live with after polluted air and high cost of travel. Cloth, food, shelter and travel are the basic needs of any human. Return it to them and the nation will flourish.

Let there be light and I need the park or the pool desperately.

Muahahahahah ROTFLMAOLOL! Such a relief~

That's my reaction after clicking the send button at 1800 this afternoon. The phone rang up right after few minutes. Never bother to pick it up. Buoybuoy my boss. hahah

Another thing was I noticed that the google document copy is dated back to 18th April 2007. That's right before I departed to backpack trip one year ago. Awww~ It was due for such a long time. However, late is better than never!

Final decision made, new chart to be drew soon. Sijil Am Pelajaran or Penguin conspiracy in little red dot as I see it now. Domestication as backup plan in June.

What do you think? Do it don't hesitate! Time just don't wait for you.

Failed of Penguin Securing.

Failed of Modern Barter System Breeding.

Failed of Judgement.

Failed of Pursuit.

Failed of getting to sleep.

deng~ feel so failed.

v., failed, fail·ing, fails.

v.intr.

1. To prove deficient or lacking; perform ineffectively or inadequately: failed to fulfill their promises; failed in their attempt to reach the summit.
2. To be unsuccessful: an experiment that failed.
3. To receive an academic grade below the acceptable minimum.
4. To prove insufficient in quantity or duration; give out: The water supply failed during the drought.
5. To decline, as in strength or effectiveness: The light began to fail.
6. To cease functioning properly: The engine failed.
7. To give way or be made otherwise useless as a result of excessive strain: The rusted girders failed and caused the bridge to collapse.
8. To become bankrupt or insolvent: Their business failed during the last recession.

1. To disappoint or prove undependable to: Our sentries failed us.
2. To abandon; forsake: His strength failed him.
3. To omit to perform (an expected duty, for example): “We must . . . hold . . . those horrors up to the light of justice. Otherwise we would fail our inescapable obligation to the victims of Nazism: to remember” (Anthony Lewis).
4. To leave undone; neglect: failed to wash the dishes.
5. 1. To receive an academic grade below the acceptable minimum in (a course, for example): failed algebra twice.
   2. To give such a grade of failure to (a student): failed me in algebra.

1. Failure to deliver securities to a purchaser within a specified time.
2. Failure to receive the proceeds of a transaction, as in the sale of stock or securities, by a specified date.

without fail

1. With no chance of failure: Be here at noon without fail.

It feels great to be able to round up something in life, especially for someone with as little persistency as me. The memory will always be cherished.

01: The leap for lunch.

02: The set.

03: The tea that was.

04: The night view.

05: The bug in the mirror.

06: The forbidden room. lolz

07: The last biscuit from northern.

08: The 3am job.

09: The cup and the mouse.

10: The souvenirs from peers. They grew a lot since then.

11: The morning sun.

12: The freeze after full night in office.

Cheers~

Circle of concern and circle of influence. Make sure you accomplish what you are capable of now not whining against what you cant make a change now, that is what I learnt from a book recommended by someone few years back. Kinda late but again, late is better than never. I think the focus is there, it is step-by-step time. Some persistency maybe.

Speaking of the word "maybe", I used to put this word in my daily speech. "Give me a call when you are done, maybe.", 'Let me know if after that, maybe" and "Monitor the network, maybe." In front of thousand of peers and colleague, I am so death at that particular moment, especially when the host regurgitate the word "maybe". deng!

Religion, Fitna, caricature, daily practices. Human just cant get rid of the argument. Every now and then, they argued whose God is greater, more authenticate, purer, more truly but don't you agree teaching of God is merely a guide for us. It is the human behavior that counts. Life has got so much to care of. Let leave this religion thingy alone and move forward shall we? I think I am not holy enough to speak maybe.

How life has changed. I supposed to aggressively grab the opportunity if I was me few years back. Maybe the surrounding has changed, maybe the mind has gotten numb or maybe I am thinking too much. Decision still need to be made when the moment came.

I think I passed the trip or it never happened.

I am so bored of the job, the people and the environment that I cant wait to get shifted out. Hopefully, things would be smoother or I've got to give it some momentum.

Not much progress in first quarter of 2008. A more responsible Chinese New Year, break-through in the country's politic arena and the failed attempt of NCLP. I am still no where to there yet.

Short break in the early of second quarter in the waiting.

I was para-officially snatched. T minus 30 days?

Went to the saloon today, noticed there was a switch in man-power. The usual guy who cut my hair in 2007 wasn't there anymore. Didn't dig out why. Signs of aging manifested itself blatantly after the cut. Deng!

Was chatting with a banker friend recently. He revealed quite some tactics to work ourselves around the clutch of life sentencing loans. From him, phrases like "think of possibilities!", "break out of the rigid barrier of conventionalism." built itself in my journey.

Lets pray for the trip. I miss Her a lot.

Pod was ready as the phone call confirmed today. Should be back by the trip.

People don't just "cant jog". They are merely lazy. LOLz.

I think I am going to trip myself again very very soon. Pray for me if you will.

Time is running out!!

Some old-shots to share.

AngPow: Guess from whom I got this? lolz. His name start with T and always hide himself in that tiny room acting busy. A surprise for me indeed after wishing him some traditional quote. Never thought of getting an AngPow from this uncle. :p

Chinese tobacco, a souvenir from colleague who traveled back from western China. Wasn't meant for me though. The impression of healthy man is no where a smoker in their eyes.

Handicap in maintenance. Don't want to speculate anything. Just a nonsense snap.

The much awaited result was out. Malaysian's key moment of 2008 has settled after 13 days of fact-bashing and name-smearing. The market however, suffered certain level of blow due to uncertainty. It is decision time.

Fate had it, he came up today, we met and an impromptu visit was planned. I think the answer is pretty obvious now. I will still make the trip down south to check out the little red dot. the One above knows what's awaiting me in front.

I browsed through a lot of blogs and personal web sites after and before the poll. Found quite a number of thoughtful writer out there. Some disgusting one too. Will put into my blog bar when the mood came. These are the people that nullifies the impossible, a group effort that reach out to the grass root netizen. I would like to share some personal views about the possibilities that lead to Saturday's overwhelming outcome.

Firstly, expectation. The people gave an almost 100% mandate to the existing government in the 11th GE with hopes that the government would carry out their promises pledged during the campaign but the results were almost the other way round.

Second, the rising cost of life caused by shortage of food supply and soaring energy cost globally increased the people dissatisfaction as the nation GDP is low. From my understanding, with low GDP, the people still afford to live a decent life when there are plenty of resources to subsidize their daily needs over what their actual income could purchase but the pressure kicks in once the resources run dry.

Finally, it is the opposition luck that they reach a mutual agreement at the right time which saw majority of the poll to be called with one-to-one fight. Another interesting point I found out from colleagues is they managed to absorb new talented player into their respective party's wings while my reckon that the current ruling party rely on traditional system of absorbing those who are highly interested with power and status.

Nevertheless, the Internet is an important medium in pursuing the goal of disseminate the parties' election propaganda within a heavily controlled MSMs environment.

A hint for the loser, REINVENT. You've already got the answer in your own propaganda but the direction and time being applied are wrong.

Good Day Malaysia. A government who depends on the people.

“It will be a government for all Malaysians. We stress that we will not rule alone but together with PKR. We also hope that the PAS can help this new government”.

Excerpted from live reports at Malaysiakini.com, I see light of democracy in my country for the first time in 26 years of life. I hope the true warriors of democracy will be blessed with guts and wits to lead the people towards a better country for all!

第一名

甲：你那条项链哪来的？

乙：跑步第一名得来的。

甲：那你跟几个人比赛，又是什么人呢？

乙：加上我一共是三个人，我跑第一名，警察跑第二名，丢失项链的人跑第三名。

Champion

A: Where did you get that necklace?

B: Well, I got it from winning a run.

A: How many of you was contesting? Who were they?

B: There were three including me. I finished the first, the policeman ran in second while the one who lost this necklace ran the third.

lolz. There are a few more which I am lazy to re-produce it. You may find more of these in <<Joke Section, Happy Sunday Special issue 132, SinChewDaily dated 24th February 2008, Sunday>>

After CNA sitting in June 2006?, my maiden seat for NCLP practicum is scheduled(after much effort of re-schedule) at 100025022008. What am I doing here? Preparation and confidence? lolz. The title is quite obvious I guess, 75% anyone?

An experienced senior advised me not to weight the final result too serious. Yup, got his point. Having failed previous few important ones taught great lessons, I guess or it is my serious approach that gave them the wrong impression? It is merely symbolic to one's ability and achievement. The ticket into the theatre, in layman term(they like to use this).

Got this while leisure reading, "Vote or don't complain on incompetence." Not sure with the true figure, I found out most of my countrymen do not bother to exercise their right. Maybe that is normal in most of the developing nation. Hope that those who missed out the coming election on 3rd March would go and register themselves for the next one, regardless of how thin the hope to change is.

Two more leaving. Dang! When is my turn?

I miss you.

年要过完了。今年比往年交静，没什么气氛。可能好像某方说法，人长大了，责任多了，感觉也淡了。无论如何，年还是要过。

哪天和妈到庙里去祈福，才发觉她已年迈七十了。这年来，自己也不年轻了，熬不起夜。希望新年里，能多与家人平安的度过。当然也不能荒废事业。

车子，星洲，两者之间不能并存。第二季尾段该会有答案。多充实自己吧！

和家人谈天，三十岁前成家对我们这一代未免太难了吧。才踏入社会那四年，真的可以令一个人领悟到当成人的责任吗？财务能力呢？两个人真的可以简简单单的生活吗？有点难以接受。还是同事的“钱做怪”较应世。

瘦。已是生活的一个字。“要吃多点哦，吃肥点哦。”竟力吧，也有点腻了。瘦也是要过生活啊。

爱情，玄学说属鸡的会有桃花运。哈哈。真的吗？那今年可要多尽点力哦。

希望能转个工作环境。学些新东西和能多往外跑。已被那纳闷的办工室困了好两年，人也懒了。建康更不用说。一定要多运动。

还有，要做建康审查了。因为老了。

该写的都写了，还是不悃。

Yes. I secured the first ever working MC. I knew the doctor saw it through but still he played it with me, professionally.

"Ok. I will award you one day off due to unfit of duty."

What a foxy-experience.

He even diagnosed that my heart pumping rate is rather unhealthy. I am not sure how true is that but plan is there to conduct a full check by the time I hit 30, or earlier.

Things I noticed is our public health care system still suck big time. Visited the public clinic just to find out that I need to wait more than a hundred patients just to meet up the physician, let alone getting the prescription and my "MC". Anyway, the new facility is somewhat a consolation for all the waiting. At least they bother to move and upgrade the basic infrastructures.

Took whole stretch of time-off since last week but lacks the good discipline to utilize it to the fullest. Only manage to cover few important topics. Time is ticking out, it is Feb 2008 soon my friend.

American Gangster, Denzel Washington, Rusell Crowe. The manlihood and black mop. Reminds me of Protege by Andy Lau. Both based on drug business and its consequence to the society. Of course, justice is brought up in the end. Good one.

Chinese New Year is around the corner. Preparations are on the way. Goods price are much higher this year. There is a 20% price rise for the drinks we used to stock-up during the season. Inflation rate is stiff to the consumer. Need a proper buying plan to usher the festive season to avoid unwanted damages to financial record.

Work, is as always demoting as it could. Wonder how many people out there are actually enjoying the job the do everyday or humans just do not seem to satisfy on whatever they have? I am moving from this very soon, I believe.

Pressure built when peers around started to engage: property, car, marriage, some even have a small family. What will I be in next 5 years, sometime I asked myself. The answer is of course equals to what I am doing now. Blogging? Endless rants and whines? God knows.

I am a very failed man. very very failed.

And I vow for changes until the day of my last breath.

I miss the sandy beach of Tioman Island and sunny morning, where we dived in right after dislodging.